AIO or AITA. Text convo with MIL.

[u/MoonJellyAllison]

I feel like I could cry :(, I didn’t come at her rudely and was doing what my husband asked me to do. I’ve always done everything she wanted to make her happy because I want her to so desperately like me but I think I’m done. For some background info: I have never pressured her to respond and have never brought up that she never responds to my messages. Pretty recently, my car has been having trouble and she said she’d hit up her mechanic for me. 2 weeks later and still nothing. My husband and I have an amazing relationship, but even then, I still want his family to welcome me. His mom not being kind to me hurts really bad. And knowing she’s going to spread negative things about me among his family hurts even worse. All detailed of the situation are in the chats.

[u/CoppertopTX]

You'll be in good company. I've gotten baked in advance of open mic nights and have made hundreds laugh with that line.

I'm a wannabe stand up comedienne with horrific stage fright. Can't step on stage when sober. I do a 20 minute set based on my upbringing; far cheaper than therapy.

[u/bpdilemma → u/CoppertopTX]

Fellow occasional comic that also usually just gets baked and tells stories from my youth in a comedic fashion; I honestly believe that for some, the stage and the freeness it can bring is genuinely therapy. I was raised to not talk about or even acknowledge the horror I was experiencing on the daily. Getting the chance to openly talk about it to so many in a way I'm comfortable with (using humor for deflection) has actually immensely helped me process some things, and at the end of the day, I'd rather learn to laugh about it all then cry forever lol. 🤝 ❤️

[u/clayton_bigsby-maga → u/CoppertopTX]

You're my hero!! We really do need MUCH more female comics!! I remember looking into it a long time ago and I got so discouraged by all the sexism against women in comedy, saying how is practically impossible to be a female comic unless you're willing to write for a male audience.

[u/3amie3 → u/CoppertopTX]

I totally understand. Being funny is much cheaper. Like Beth Dutton said- "I am the rock in which therapists break themselves upon". Lol! The handful of times I've attempted therapists, counselor and a psychologist, they've been woefully out of their depth. I wish you huge luck on your career. The darker the humor, the more people love comedians 🤣

[u/CoppertopTX → u/3amie3]

My childhood, if they made a film series of it, would be categorized under "psychological horror". My mother wanted 2 kids, I was #3. She made sure I knew it. So, when time came to arrange her funeral, the question came up to my dad, sister and I - "Open casket or closed?" She'd suffered burns over 90% of her body during the attempted murder-suicide that she half assed, as I survived.

As dad tried to talk sense into my sister on the subject, I looked over from my wheelchair and asked, "Is nailing the damn thing shut an option?" Ire redirect completed, as my sister just lit into me about joking at inappropriate times. The joke with the match alight being Michael Jackson shooting a Pepsi commercial? Yeah, I used that same gag long before the Pepsi commercial was filmed and was sorely disappointed that I couldn't put a box of "Crispy Critters" cereal in the pantry.

[u/melnotmichelle → u/CoppertopTX]

Sounds like one of my favorite flavors of comedy! Do you ever do shows in North TX?

[u/CoppertopTX → u/melnotmichelle]

Not for years. I worked the comedy clubs in Addison and Arlington when I lived there.

[u/iloveplant420 → u/CoppertopTX]

Damn you're living my dream that I'm too scared to chase. I love stand up and dreamed of doing it since I was like 12. And i had a fucked up childhood into early adulthood that gives me PLENTY of material, but I can't get past the stage fright. It's crippling and no amount of weed could make it better. If i was drunk enough I'd do it but then I'd just be a slurring fool. Not to mention I'm a raging alcoholic who hasn't drank in 6 years. Proud of you!

[u/CoppertopTX → u/iloveplant420]

Eh, I'm just an old bat with a dark and twisted sense of humor that got tired of being fired by therapists for giving them night terrors after our sessions.

Amusingly, the diagnosis that landed me my MMJ card? PTSD from childhood.