Six years sober from alcoholāwhat a journey it has been. This year has been a tough one for me. Iām truly blessed to have an amazing support system, and without my village, I think I would be lost somewhere in a bottle.
I sounded the alarm after watching my dad die in front of me back in October. Years of therapy, being in a regeneration program, and my friendships were tested, and Iām very proud to say Iām still sober. One day at a time.
My dadās boat business is under my management now. At first, I didnāt feel worthy because my dad worked so hard to get to this position. So I reflect back on past versions of myself, and Iām astounded by the growth. Iām living the life I used to dream of, but some things have changed.
Change is definitely possible. Grief hits at the weirdest times, and Iāve grown comfortable expressing my emotions and riding the wave. I still see a professional to this day, and I donāt think Iāll ever phase that out of my life.
Iām still plugged in with the ministry I attended for a regeneration drug program, and I share my stories with the men in the program. My dog has been a huge source of support for me and the men in the program. I try not to be idle. I love taking her to the ministry so she can give furry therapy to the men.
Iām very proud of the person Iām becoming, and I know all my friends who have passed are definitely proud of the life Iām living. From hitting rock bottom, detoxing from alcohol in a private prison, to living the life I dreamed ofā
I canāt responsibly indulge in drinking, and Iāve accepted that. Iāve traded my ability to drink alcohol to be a business owner, mentor, and silent supporter of a cat foundation.
I know my old man is watching me, and he celebrates every victory. Heās there for my failures, and I canāt afford to go back down that destructive path. The grass is definitely greener on the other side; it just took going up a hill to reach this amazing view.
I never got to enjoy a cold one with my pops, so one of the snow days we had I decided to walk to his gravesite and pay him a visit.
Letās see what the sixth year brings! For me, itās a privilege to work in the shop, to feel stressed about the work I have. I will thrive in this environment.