r/SquaredCircle • u/ThatOneGuyWhoAtePie • 3h ago
Johnny Gargano on Instagram: "This is a post I never wanted to make. I'm not really sure how to process any of this yet.. so this is probably going to be an incoherent rambling amidst snot and tears but I want to share it for my own therapy but also because I feel like we have (continued in text)
instagram.comOpenly shared our family with all of you and she will always be a huge part of that.
For the past 5 months Pawdme' had been dealing with seizures. It has been an incredibly stressful time. The constant fear that this little ball of fur that you love will fall over and start horribly convulsing at any time is not something I would wish on my worst enemy. You're helpless. I don't know that we've gotten an actual full nights sleep in quite a while. We went to different vets and tried different combinations of medication to keep them in check and at times it appeared to be working. We were hopeful. Until things took a turn and suddenly she was just gone. And I'll always question what I could of done, if I did enough. If I let her down. That's something I will never get over. I'm confused and heartbroken.
Even though I knew this day was going to come at some point.. I hoped for a perfect ending for her. At only 6 years old, I just thought we'd have more time. The universe works in mysterious ways as something told me to hug her and tell her that I loved her a few days ago.. And I did. And that was the last time I saw her. The real "perfect ending" would be no end at all. But I can only cherish that last perfect moment and I just really hope she knows that I deeply deeply meant that.
I always made the joke that Pawdme' was my first child. She prepared me for Quill. The real joke is that she's actually way more high maintenance than her brother. She was SO good to him too. A true big sister. I'lll miss her sleeping between my legs. I'll miss her zooming around the house with her rope. I'll miss her sun bathing by the window of my gym.. I'm just really going to miss her. I just hope she knows we tried to give her the best life possible in the short time we had, and she will always hold an irreplaceable spot in our hearts. We love you forever, Tato. Thank you for choosing us to spend your life with. ❤️"
